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Yesterday I had a (scary/violent) dream that I fell asleep on my trampoline, with my pink blanket. It was pretty comfortable. But then I heard these two guys talking in the house behind mine. They were saying how they used a gun to shoot all of their family members :O and then they were like “Since you heard about what we did we’ll have to kill you too.” And I was like, “Don’t worry, I can keep a secret.” And somehow I convinced them that I could keep a secret. So I ran back into the house and I went up to my room, and I was wondering whether or not I should tell my mom or the police. Then I went to hide in my attic in case someone with a gun came after me. It was pretty scary. I wondered what to do with my ladder so they wouldn’t know that I was up there. And then I started wondering about this book that we talked about in class in elementary school about the witness protection program. Yeah it was like =O.
I took like a 3-hour nap today because I was really bored and had nothing else to do. Then I watched the House marathon. I really want to be tired right now so I can sleep, and also so I can start writing nonsense. Whenever I’m tired I start typing nonsense and the next time I do that I shall not delete what I write and I shall instead read it when I’m not tired and laugh =P
TODAY i went home after 4th period to go to the doctor’s to get this thing on my arm removed at 11:00, meaning I missed my chem quiz, ap euro test, and (?)ap government test???? or nvm i think we just had an election discussion. The surgery was kind of weird. First, the doctor poked me with a bunch of anasthesia needles and she was like “do you feel the poking” and i was like yes…yes…yes and she was like “oh well u were supposed to have stopped feeling it a while ago but i’ll just wait for the anasthesia to get in. and so we waited and then she poked me again and i didn’t feel it, so she proceded with the surgery. I looked up and saw her cutting away parts of my skin and the layer underneath was the white fatty layer which looked pretty disgusting. And I was like eugh. And I kept feeling her poking me and she had to inject me with anasthesia a few more times. And she told me that she went to Whippany High School, and then to Case Western for both undergrad and grad school, etc. I told her that I was a senior. Then she stitched up my arm and perma-glued this bandaide on my arm with this gummy spray and told me to come back in 2 weeks to get the top stitches off (although the bottom ones will dissolve in about 9 months which is how long it’ll take for it to heal). And it’ll leave a scar, though, I’ll probably start treating it right away instead of 3 years later like the scar on my leg.
BTW congratulations 08bama you totally rocked and won in this historical election =) the democrats took a nice gamble in you and they WON and now you will be a greattt president and hopefully you will fix the economy!! and i wouldn’t mind if u helped along wall street in their financial crisis when i come out of business school i would need in a job > . >
I’ve been handbag-hunting on eBay and couldn’t find anything, but whenever I “hunt” for something on eBay I always find a better version in real life and just buy that instead (such as books, roller skates, D&B bags, etc.). Also, it’s so completely hard to search things like “tote” on eBay because you get so many different varieties. The ones I’m looking for are fancy handbag-like totes I can use for college. Juicy Couture as well has this problem: I’m looking for a daydreamer, which is what is used to call ALL bags with a rectangular shape and a bow. But I’m looking for a specific one, and there was no other keyword for it. The other day I saw a few Juicy Couture barrel bags in Marshalls and this lady took every single one of them. Then I saw another one, a purple one this time, and I held it and played with it and the velour kind of bends a little too easily but the leather exceeded expectations. I didn’t want to buy it though, because for the same money (actually, less), I could get the Juicy Couture bag that I wanted the most off of eBay.
Also, I found the purple hearts Dooney and Bourke bag that I’ve really really really wanted! But at that time I wasn’t willing to spend $80 to buy a bag that I will only wear it for a few years and then will throw aside because I am sick of little 5-year-old girly butterflies and hearts and COLORS!
The seller of that bag keeps lowering the BIN and starting bid price every time she relists the item, so I guess I’ll just keep waiting until someone seems to buy it (but there are three) or she won’t lower the price anymore. Or I would buy it if the Microsoft Cashback feature gave me 30% back (now it is at 25% back and because of that an 100$ Buy It Now bag is only 75$! The % could go lower, though, so I really should take advantage of it while I can! It’s almost like gambling =P Sigh I am buying so much. But it’s all to hoard for college! I can’t wait to go to college.
I cleaned out my closet the other day, putting everything I didn’t want haphazardly into one of the empty rooms. It kind of sucks that these beautiful empty rooms are being used as storage because they used to be my room and they used to be beautiful and neat, and now they are so messy. I kept ONLY the clothes that I was willing to pack and bring to college, including some but definitely not all of my shoe collection that I am bringing with me to college!
This morning I woke up and realized that I had some…interesting dreams. They are on the TIP of my tongue and my mind and I was really close to getting what it was but then I forgot again…I’ll update when I have that dream. I may have been hallucinating about another dream though. I type when I hallucinate which is what I do when I need to sleep. So a lot of things you see typed that are really weird is because I really need sleep. (You know what I *almost* typed!? “So a lot of things you see typed…such as Joe Biden going out with his granddaughter”…wtf?! I type weird things when I’m asleep. I once wrote a chemistry lab while asleep. It was really painful cuz i was sort of in limbo. And I wrote “I hate chemistry” in random places in random ways in the lab. And it was ALL subconscious – I did NOT think about it at all…and I had to go back in and change all the parts that said that and other wrong things or even just grammar mistakes.
Okay I am seriously sleepy right now. Someday I shall write an article where everything I’m thinking about while semiconscious is written down. Later, though.
Yesterday night I had a series of…interesting dreams. One of them, I was in Amazing Savings (which is like the thrift shop or something around here) and i found a few interesting-looking stuffed animals that were in the shape of small goldfish or minnows etc. And i thought that was interesting because i’ve had all of those as pets before. And the pillows were soft and I was like “hmm…maybe i can make my college dorm room like an underwater theme and have goldfish-shaped pillows.” then i found a few t-shirts underneath that and the tshirts were interesting…and i tried to find the price but couldn’t, until i saw that there was another pile of tshirts for 70 cents each…and i was like that’s cheap. but then i found out that the ones i was holding were $3. and i was like why don’t i just switch the tags, it’s not like the cashiers would know, but then i felt guilty about it. then i saw a random person that i knew from school in the same store with their parents and i was like oh i don’t want to say hi to them…so i’ll just hide behind a shelf of stuff. and my mom came over and she was like let’s go to the register…and i was like *hmm this stuff behind the shelf is very interesting*
then i was in the city, and it felt like i was in a movie (specifically the musical wicked) and it was like an interesting…chase? idk. and then we were at this tennis court place with the girls from the tennis team and i was like “hmmm…i’ve had this dream before.” and i was like “i’m supposed to go over there and realize that somebody was over there” and i did and there were people who dressed up as witches. and then i was like “look it’s (i forgot the name) in purple wizards clothes” and we ran back to find our tennis coach and be like “xxx is coming to kill us” or something like that. and he was like “no he’s not” and i was like “Darn what should i do, because LAST time i had this dream he believed us, and now he doesn’t.” and then i was like “i need to go to the bathroom” and i went to the portapotty and hid in there even though it was disgusting. and i had a book with me and i had no clue where to put that because there was no room inside. and i tried to climb out the back so i wouldn’t get caught and i was thinking “if i was some heroine of a movie i’d think of something REALLY smart right now to escape.” and basically i couldn’t think of anything, so i just walked out the front and walked back. and the guy we were trying to escape from came up and he was like get onto the tennis court. and we allwent onto the tennis court and he gave us a lecture about something. IDK lol =P
that’s basically it
Right now I just finished watching a show on Tyra Show about a girl auctioning off her virginity for almost 4 million dollars! I was just surprised at how much money someone would pay to have sex with a 22-year old virgin. Wouldn’t there would be a lot of people willing to auction off their virginity for $4 million??? I mean there sure are a lot of prostitutes around. And the girl (Natalie Dylan) isn’t even that pretty…her pictures were ok but on T.V. I didn’t like her face very much. Then Tyra introduced one 60-year-old guy who was one of her bidders…and Tyra was like WOW you look like my accountant because he could totally pass off as a respectable businessman (but since when were businessmen respectable anyways?). A lot of women, of course, are angry at Natalie for degrading women (even though she herself believes that she is empowering women)…but $4 million is a lot of money…
Oh and there were also a few “professional” prostitutes on the Tyra Show complaining about how Natalie could make more money than they made in the last 10 years because she is an inexperienced virgin, which doesn’t really make sense and is unfair (or so they say). Lol.
Now that I think about it however, sexuality is really a personal decision and girls shouldn’t preach their morals to others…that is like preaching about religion to someone who doesn’t share your religion…and if Natalie feels perfectly fine with what she is doing with her body, I think that she has all the right to do what she wants without facing social taboos and basically peer pressure. Although it may not be empowering women the way that feminists say it is, I think that it is empowering to teenagers and to her personally because she is willing really to carry on with what she wants despite facing social ostracism. I obviously do not personally agree with what she is doing and I myself wouldn’t do that, but…more power to her for not conforming to social norms.
I used to be a strong believe in…I guess PURITY, but that seems stupid now. Sex is frequently tied in with religion, and chastity is kind of like going to church every sunday and never having missed prayer or anything else. it’s like part of these old beliefs that conservatives have…so is doing drugs…but honestly safe sex is not half as harmful as maybe heroin or binge drinking, although all of these are honestly chosen paths of life that are just not acceptable by society yet because society is mean to outsiders and those who do not conform. i guess now we don’t really care if people aren’t religious, and in a few decades all of our children will be much more promiscuous than we ever were, just like us compared to our parents’ era, and we will worry about them being so liberal and talk about the good old days when we actually had sex education, but we really would have nothing much to worry about because STDs would have been cured, and there would be like super-powered condoms that work 100% of the time, and abortion would be quick and easy (which kinda sux for the unborn babies but oh well). abortions now are also kind of socially unacceptable, but they are accepted by many liberals, and all these religiousy views that are leftover in our society which are like almost nonexistant in europe (proving europeans are smarter than us) will be gone and people like barack obama with his seemingly socialist views would actually become the conservative part of america. like seriously, if you took the livingston high school kids and made them the “future” of our country, we would be so freakin’ flaming liberal that Obama (despite being one of the most liberal people in our government) would be like moderate…so yeah that is how government moves along…gawd our country will become socialist one day at the face that we’re moving.
THE ELECTION IS TOMORROW. i am excited. i kind of really hoped that it would be a close match. watching it get thrown into the House of Representatives sounds amazing interesting. i can say that i lived through this period of change and political unrest! maybe if obama wins he will take power from the Republicans…and they will be so mad that they take the army and take back the presidency and rule as dictators!! anyways i really wanted a closer match so it would be more exciting and nervewracking kinda like tennis matches, but it would probably be an easy Obama victory. Well, I do want Obama to win. But there is like a “maybe” in there that would make this election much more interesting and that is what McCain is probably banking on…the last stand…of maybe people who want to vote for Obama voting for McCain instead because McCain is white (Bradley Effect). And that will probably spice up the action a little bit. My AP Gov class is kind of predicting an easy Obama win though. Apparnetly people think the election will be over by about 7 PM.
I sent my ED apps and will send Caltech today, but I forgot to get my ED release form signed by my guidance counselor…again!! I will have to do that on wednesday because tomorrow and thursday and friday are off school…and i think i will have to rush-mail it. i hope that’s ok and i hope they start deciding soon! i kind of love the feeling that my app is out of my hands now, which it isn’t for MIT because of the interview, but it kind of is =P i can’t do much else now and i won’t.
10 more apps to do though. colleges that i don’t really care much about:
northwestern
JHU
NYU
Cornell
colleges that I semi care about:
columbia
brown
colleges that i care about:
yale
princeton
stanford
harvard
so yeah…i’ll send them in batches…ones i care about and ones i don’t. actually Pton and Yale and Harvard and Columbia are COMPLETELY done. JHU and Cornell are…sort of done? the others need work lol. 6/16 left to do! can’t wait until i get a decision…any decision. i got a small envelope from rutgers the other day and i was like “what??” i got rejected from rutgers?? but it was actually a letter saying i needed to send my transcript. now i did that a while ago and it still didn’t get there??? anyways i hope it gets there fast.
ONE DAY TO GO TILL THE ELECTION. i’m excited =) no school tomorrow cept two tests on wed. in gov and in euro. maybe in chem? i forget. my euro book is in school meaning i’ll probably have to read in study on wed. or i’ll get it from school tomorrow…OH WAIT i have an appointment from 2:00PM on wed. to get my mole(s) off meaning i’ll miss the gov’t test. ah well lol =P i’ll make it up…atually i’ll probably make it up in the morning on wed. or something.
like i’ve said before i can’t wait for science olympiad to start, so i wouldn’t have to come home and do nothing all day. I tutored some girl today, which at first was supposed to be geometry but she had nothing really to tutor about and she was like do u do half hour? and i was like…uh i’d rather it be one hour…and she was like lol do you want the full hour and i was like “uh…they want it to be one hour 0.0″ and she was like what. anyways so i did bio for the next half and hour and it was ok and i think she learned alot and i think i can teach bio much better than i can teach math because math is less understanding for me but more *just getting it* and i think that’s the truth for a lot of people. it’s intuitive. lol. and then i started to wonder: what does it feel like to be average intelligence. what does it feel like to learn something and not understand it? and to do so badly on such easy tests LOL. that’s probably what i’ll feel like compared to people at college, even though i *think* that no matter where i go, I would probably still be at least slightly above average or average….maybe even higher….of course it’s not all about intelligence, and also ithink i’m being slightly arrogant =P
i’m going to put on some of my new makeup that i got and see what i look like 
btw i totally failed this math test, lol, it was so hard. oh well, there goes that A in math =p however i hope i will get an A in chem and econ actually i know i will. and A-s in euro, gov’t, math. B+ in english. LOL oh wellll that’s good for me i guess. a little low but hey i’m a senior -_- that means to get an A i need to maintain an A in chem and econ and get As in euro gov’t and math next marking period. and As on the midterms. and hopefully for englihs just an A- so i would need an A- and A- next mp and midterm.
I submitted MIT and Penn yesterday. I still need to get my GC to sign my ED release form and then i’ll mail that too. i hope my teachers have all mailed out their recommendation letters.
W00T. this was the list of things i did yesterday:
-proofread MIT
-proofread Penn Supplement
-Edited/rewrote my friend’s ED commonapp essay
-proofread MIT
-proofread MIT
-Edited my abstract
-fixed up MIT essays according to last-minute advice
-fixed up commonapp essays
-proofread MIT
-changed everything…putting in the new essays
-proofread MIT
-edited my friend’s supplement
-edited my friend’s short answers
-proofread Penn
-proofread Commonapp
-sent everything =) yayayayayayay
-decided to send in caltech tomorrow or the day after that
-tried to fix up essays…didn’t really work
oh well!
i deserve a present. or a slice if PIE. or cake. IDK =O
yeah i should buy myself a present yay. hmmm what do i want
